I waited for quite long time, until I saw her. Her face was blushing red while she gave me the test pack. Without seeing it first, I asked her, “How’s it?”. “I haven’t looked it.”, she replied. But, by seeing her face, I knew she already saw it and she wanted me to have a look of it by myself.

I looked into it and said, “Alhamdulillah …”. The test gave positif result. I am going to be a father. All praise is for you Allah, the creator of heaven and earth. I realized this is not an easy task. Allah has given me a very big amanah that I should keep.

Ya Allah, You who gave me this amanah,
please give me power to hold it,
because there is no power without Yours.

Give me knowledge to raise my family according to Your way,
since all knowledge come from You,
and I dont have any knowledge, except You give me.

Ya Allah, who possess all the heaven and earth,
give me rizqi from your side, which is halal and barakah.

Ya rabb, make my wife and my children be pleasure in my eyes and my heart,
and make me a leader to people who fear and obey you.

Ya Allah, make this task feel easy for me and for my wife.
Forgive all of our mistakes and sin,
because You are most forgiveful to all sin
and there are no one can forgive unless You.

Mohon doa dari semua keluarga dan teman-teman.

I have been living in Japan for almost 6 months now. There are so many things that I can learn in this new environment. The language, culture, people, technology and so on. But what I learn the most is about myself and there are so many other things I dont really understand myself…the searching is still in progress … tsuzuketeiru …